Nightlights and Polar Bears

I had a headache at work today, and when i had to talk to people over the phone, or more so listen to people over the phone, my internal mantra was shut the fuck up, shut the fuck up, shut the fuck up…etc. If i’m really quiet I can still hear it going… what is my life coming to.

There’s nothing sadder than having Sleepyhead come on and not having someone to freakishly dance with. CURSE you Pandora

I got into a Master’s program for mental health counseling, I watched all of Lost in its great entirety, I beat Donkey Kong Country for the SNES, I ran out of money, I was asked to do a desk position (which pays more) as well as my MHW position at work, I had some fights with my boyfriend and I just feel like I don’t understand why people think relationships should be complex, I’ve also fallen in love, I read only one book :Everything Matters by Ron Currie Jr, I watched seasons 1-3 of Breaking Bad, I painted two really bad watercolor pictures, I bought my first sundress for the summer, I was drunk twice by myself drinking finger lakes wine, I started doing cryptograms like they’re crack, I was bitten, kicked, and almost pissed on, I’ve lost 8 lbs, and gained 5lbs, I’ve cried at least once a week because I can’t handle not being with my family of friends, I watched some of Parks and Recreation, I regularly drive sleep deprived (which is worse than driving drunk I found out), I watched Midnight in Paris, I still, if more than ever, exclusively watch the food network on TV, I celebrated my first valentine’s, I made homemade naan and curry, I’ve gone fishing, I found a $500+ Mark Twain book at GoodWill, and that’s really all I can remember from the past 3 months. 

Solo dance party with a glass of wine, and Beyonce’s 4 album

I’m so excited for Christmas I can’t sleep.

Another night home alone…

Waiting for the wine to chill, listening to old music christmas songs, and tearing up. 

I have so much christmas spirit and no one to enjoy it with. 

Just cleaned my room super duper. 

Now I’m enjoying the last of my Blue Newt White wine, listening to Frank Sinatra Pandora, and burning lavender incense, maybe I should just be alone more often.